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At the end of 2019 this slave is horny and with a horny cunt and sore teats from yesterday's training it is thinking back to last year, a year with many developments and new experiences for this slave. A new, much larger standard plug , which the pig has been training to be able to wear continuously, with slow but sure improvements and it will hopefully soon be able to wear the plug for extended periods of time.  A  heavier permanent ball weight  and intensified balls training with the 1.5kg bag. Heavy balls as reminder of its beast nature and Master's ownership of them. A new user of the pig; after a first  inspection by MemasterU  it was happy to be allowed to serve again and has been loaned out a few more times. Being used as a cock sucker, bound, fucked, and tortured, which contributes to its training into a pain pig and play toy.  Steps towards  depersonalization , the slave now refers to itself as an 'it' and is also referred to as suc...

The pig spent the day with suction cups on its teats which were feeling intense, they were soon burning and tingling from the stretching. Horny but painful. Thinking of how that would contribute to their slow but sure enlargement. This evening Master trained the beast, first getting it horny and its cock to leak with some teat play and then He had it edge in a slow but firm way. The black clamps with extra weights on its teats, which gives a horny pain when swinging them as it was made to do. The bag weight was attached to its balls in such a way that the rope was tight when sitting down with the bag resting on the floor. Master had some positions and exercises for the beast: Standing with its ass stuck backward and legs spread, walking around like that, the weight bumping and swinging from its balls.  Squatting so the weight would just rest on the floor, again its ass stuck backwards. Feeling like it was presenting and offering its cunt for use, feeling the Titan plug pres...

This slave has been away for a few days of holiday, and was lucky with a couple of sunny crisp wintery days which allowed for some nice outdoor activities. The slave was permitted a break from blogging but its slavery continued and the slave experienced a regular stream of horny and submissive feelings that it enjoyed. The cold weather also reminded it of its slavery; the ball weight putting pressure on its balls and causing a burning feeling because of a contracted ball sac. The submissive feelings it had were a continuation of what has been going on already recently. A deep horny tension in its stomach just from the reality of being an owned slave. Feelings that seem to be deepening a bit and it is like they are sometimes giving the slave a taste of more to come, and cause a desire for these feelings to grow in stability and strength over the coming time and for it to really come to know its place. When traveling home, the train was full and the slave had to stand. A situation in...

The slave was having submissive feelings today and was for instance triggered in those feelings by men in the supermarket this morning. On the one hand there is the horniness that makes it look at men's crotches and picture itself on its knees as they open their zipper and expect service, or some man's hand up close triggering it to fantasize about opening its mouth so they can stick their fingers in. On the other hand there is that more humble bow-head-in-respect feeling -- which can also carry a horny tension -- of wanting to feel the status difference, craving to experience their authority more in general, wanting to make them feel comfortable in feeling superior to the slave. Asking its Master for permission to skip its blog post tomorrow was also something that triggered these feelings, because having to ask permission felt at the same time so normal and so affirming of its place, which feels humiliating and right, at the same time. And physically the pig's teats h...

The slave spent Christmas day with family while feeling the horniness constantly nagging. The total lack of control over the when and how of a release is an aspect of its slavery that never stops being a thrill. It has been a week since it was last made to cum, and it gets horny thinking back to lying between MemasterU's legs and getting its teats tortured as it orgasmed in pain. Its ball sac was feeling a bit better today and its cunt was still feeling the afterglow of the plug, feeling horny and glowing and that was a submissive distraction during the day. It was thinking back to that feeling as described yesterday, when its cunt was feeling cramped and the plug that felt like it stretched its cunt wide open, a feeling that was both very uncomfortable and very horny. And now its cunt is feeling this horny ache. On the road in the car back home its thoughts went to the recent tortures and the reality of being a slave that can be used, tortured and has nothing to say about that...

The plug may or may not be horny and enjoyable for the pig, but it remains primarily an element of Master's control and a reminder of its ongoing slavery. That was clear yesterday when it went to bed after its candle torture session, where it was with a certain submissive feeling that it pushed its standard plug back in its cunt again. Feeling simply a slave doing as it is supposed to. Crawling into bed with a throbbing cock, feeling the plug fuel its horniness, as its Master wants it to do. Its cunt was feeling a bit cramped which forced the slave to try to keep it as relaxed as possible, and the combination caused a feeling of its cunt being spread wide open by the plug, as if it was a lot bigger than normal, and the realisation of being constantly filled up like that because its Master determined so, made it feel submissive. But the plug unfortunately had to be removed later during the night as it was causing too much trouble. This morning the cunt was still irritated and He i...

Master gave the pig some good pain training this evening. It presented itself like He wanted it to, sitting naked on the Titan plug and with a gag in its snout. It enjoyed playing with its teats and getting itself super horny, getting its cock to leak in horny surrender to its Master. Then it was time for slow edging with the clover clamps on its teats, and for some heat. A lit candle was placed under its balls to heat them up. Master directed the beast, telling it when to bring its balls lower to the flame, and when to lift them up again. When its balls were low the flame gave them painful stings, but the slave enjoyed having no choice but to surrender to that pain, pain its Master wanted it to feel. The slave used a second candle to drip wax on its cock, while the balls continued to be roasted. The pain of the hot drops on its cock kept it near the edge of orgasm and the continuous edging caused the solidified candle wax to fall off. so this way it was continuously feeling the ...

The pig is at times getting so horny from the plug in its cunt. Sometimes sitting down and rocking, riding on it and feeling it massage its prostate. Sometimes sitting back and relax, focusing on the buildup of the horny glow that the plug produces deep within its body as the plug presses against its prostate. This horniness can get intense and then it feels like a true pig, with a stiff cock leaking precum. Fantasizing about getting fucked, about playing with itself, drooling, getting crazy with lust. Some house music was playing today that brought the slave in its mind back to being used by MemasterU, because it is music he always puts on during the loanouts. Certain submissive emotions that are hard to describe are tied to that music now, certain feelings of humility, of the constant here-and-now focus on what is expected of it, and the subtle nervous not in control feeling of never knowing what comes next. But also a certain happiness of being a source of pleasure and horniness i...

The pig cunt has been plugged for 4 days straight now and this evening it was sitting on the couch being horny and feeling the plug fill it up and causing a deep horny glow in its body. The cunt relaxed, having given up resistance to the constant invader. Accepting it and causing pure deep horny enjoyment... Good training for the cunt and for the pig's ability to be plugged constantly. The pig is getting really horny from the feeling that wearing this large plug for extended periods of time pain/issue free might be within reach soon. Spending its days with the plug spreading its cunt open and constantly fueling its horniness, leaving no choice but to enjoy. And with the horniness it is feeling, it is thinking back to last week, to the loanout to MemasterU, and how it was fucked like a piece of meat and used for his pleasure. How the plug was stuffed back in after he was done. How sore its teats felt after wearing them during the whole session, and for part of it with extra weig...

The pig is still plugged, and was at home for a large part of the day so it has been wearing the suction cups on its teats. The pig is required to wear the suction cups constantly whenever reasonably possible. They always start off with a comfortable horny feeling, but as time progresses and the skin is under prolonged stretch, they start to burn more which is a horny painful feeling. The combination of the plug and the suction cups causing a frustrating feeling. It gets horny from the idea of clearly enlarged teats, clearly a slave modified for the pleasure of its Master. Reminded that as its owner this is just something He can do. Teats that are more horny, protrude more, rub against its clothes more. Teats that invite use and abuse by its superiors. But there is also the nervousness of there being no way back and having no control over the process. And so it is both thrilling/horny and scary to see some definite permanent effects happening lately. And with the plug the goal is t...

The pig woke up frustrated from the plug, causing its cock to twitch which in turn made its cunt contract on the plug, a frustrated loop. At work it enjoyed sitting and moving on the plug which made it horny. This evening the plug was temporarily replaced by the Titan for its training and with clover clamps the pig was edging to a fantasy Master gave it. At a sex party where it was used for some horny entertainment in a game in which it was blindfolded and tied on the floor, made to rim a number of different guys and had to guess which guy it had been rimming. Scored also on the quality of its rimming, and facing heavy punishment if its service did not get a high enough score. Several rounds and a substantial amount of time forced to spend exploring every aspect of their asses in order to be able to guess correctly. Having the clover clamps on its teats, edging with one hand and manipulating the clamps with the other to send horny pain into its teats, the pig was told to continue e...

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This slave was loaned out to MemasterU for use this evening. It was to wear the plug in its cunt, strip naked upon entrance, put the black clamps on its teats and wait in the hallway. After a little while MemasterU came to fetch it and put a black leather collar around the slave's neck. With a leash attached he led it into the living room where it got on the floor to start licking his boots and then the leather crotch pouch in submission. Soon it was turned into a horny beast, blindfolded and with tongue stuck out as MemasterU stuck his fingers deep in its mouth and played with the clamps, and it then got to pleasure his cock. In blissful surrender it enjoyed his pleasure and being able to provide that pleasure, happy about the situation of him having a slave to use for his enjoyment like that. Whenever the slave was not sucking his cock it was ball gagged. Put in various forms of bondage, the slave's ass was paddled, whipped, flogged. The slave trying to keep relaxed and...

The horniness is getting strong again and that puts the pig in a state of horny frustration. A state it enjoys as a slave and makes it feel controlled and full of horny desire. And it is enjoying how sensitive its body is feeling. Teats sensitive from the cups which is a horny stimulation throughout the day as they rub against the inside of its shirt. They are also protruding a bit more now, especially when aroused, which adds to the stimulation. And a frustrating horniness in its cunt that has been a bit stronger recently and also today, especially when thinking about the feeling of being plugged. With the loanout to MemasterU coming up tomorrow, Master took it a bit easy with the slave. He gave it a relatively short training session and the Titan plug was removed right after the session. Master wanted to make sure that its cunt would be fully usable by MemasterU tomorrow. The pig was edging while gagged and with clover clamps on its teats, with the weight bag on its balls. Craw...

The slave's ass is still feeling the effects of last Thursday's session , making it glow when sitting down. A horny idea that it cannot sit without feeling that soreness and being reminded of the torture. But very "pleasureable" too, today there was again a moment of feeling the rocking motion of the car seat causing a strong reaction of the slave cock, causing it to strain within the cockring and throb. From such developments Master is getting further confirmation that He can develop this slave into a real pain pig, and for the slave this means its training will mostly focus on that aspect. If it thinks of the coming week, knowing there will probably be pain and suffering on a daily basis including during the loanout, it feels a certain longing for that, it must admit. And a certain healthy nervousness too, because the pain is still pain and the suffering is still suffering -- it's wanting and not wanting. And it thinks the intensity will increase over time a...

Last night the slave had to remove the plug because it was causing trouble. This morning Master assured the pig that it will be working up to being constantly plugged again, and will start to build that up next week. It makes the pig horny to think of being plugged 24/7 again. It is always a strong submissive feeling to feel the control of a plug constantly in its cunt, stimulating its horniness, with no reason or permission to take it out of the cunt, which is owned by its Master. And it knows that its Master enjoys keeping the pig that way. Hopefully building it up over time will help its cunt adjust to and accept the plug better for this purpose. The slave's ass was still sensitive and somewhat sore today when sitting, and it had some muscle pain in its upper legs and ass, from the squatting, and probably from not having sat on the spikes in a very relaxed manner. But the pig does notice that thinking back to the suffering, the spikes, the impalement, the orgasmic pleasure, th...

Master concluded that since this slave managed to cum three times in a row, this will be the default from now on. That made it feel the reality of its enslavement: living a life being horny and frustrated by default, and knowing it can only expect releases in pain and effortful suffering every time Master decides the pig balls have finally built up enough pressure to drain them. As a horny submissive reminder of that reality, the slave's ass has been feeling quite sore today, with marks from the spikes still palpable and visibly red. It knows from last time that it is going to feel it for a few days. And put back in slave gear: the plug in its cunt, pressing on its prostate, causing a stiff cock. A large invader and not yet without discomfort but making it feel that its cunt is owned by its Master. And His slave balls are feeling the ball weight that was re-applied yesterday, heavy, pulling and/or pressing on the balls constantly. Needing to adjust to the weight constantly...

Master promised the slave that when it would be made to cum next, it would be in pain, sitting on the torture bench, and it would have to cum three times in a row. It had been feeling a lot of things about that. Desire, nervousness, the humiliation of cumming only in pain. This evening it was time. Master decided the slave would be cumming. And so it is with a burning red ass that this slave is now writing this blog post. It had been very horny today, especially feeling the frustration it in its cunt, horny from two evenings of riding on the Titan plug. For the training session this evening, Master made it wear its standard plug and re-attach the ball weight. Gag in its snout. Soon it was playing with its teats and getting super horny, also from the plug and the ball weight, knowing it would be feeling that heavy weight on a 24/7 basis again. Ordered to watch videos of fffrankk  and cgnben , the pig saw a lot of fisting, edging and milking, appropriately themed for the evening ...

The slave knew it would be given some pain training this evening and during the day it felt submissive in the knowledge that it is its place to endure whatever Master has in mind for it. Aware of its lack of control and its status, which can at times be an intense submissive feeling, especially with the horniness coursing through its body after yesterday's edging, and feeling its pumped teats, very sensitive under its clothing which stimulated the pig during the day. Master treated the slave's balls with some pain this evening. First having it carry the weight bag around as it was made to walk around with its legs spread, clamped teats forward, ass stuck whorishly backward. It was imagining it was presenting its cunt to be fucked. Edging and focusing on the horniness in its teats and cunt, feeling the Titan plug, and the squeezed feeling in its balls that will soon again be wearing the ball weight. Then the balls were in for some heat, a lit candle under its balls, dildo ...

Starting to feel better, the pig returns to a state of strong horniness and submissive feelings. A horny feeling of openness and desire in its cunt, regularly stiff cock, super sensitive teats. Master let it know that He was not available for a session this evening so He gave it orders to spend the evening with the suction cups on its teats and the Titan plug in its cunt and edge to videos of slaves being used/abused. At the end of the afternoon its horniness and submissive feelings were rather intense and made it feel a certain submissive nervousness when it was going home after work: already feeling crazy horny and knowing it would have an evening ahead in which it would be stimulating itself further and have no choice but to surrender to that frustrating horniness all evening. Feeling a craving for the stimulation but also feeling frustrated, submissive and very much controlled.  The edging made it super horny. Feeling the burning tingle on its teats and the Titan plug p...

This evening when it was clear the slave was not feeling well enough yet for a session, it felt very submissive when it asked its Master to give it some more space this evening instead of a training session. That has to do with being in touch with its feeling of being owned and the feelings of humility and respect from which such a question then comes. Respect for its own feelings, and from that place within itself, respect for its Master and His ownership of this slave. In the past this slave was more inclined to think of slavery as something more to do with being forced, having no say in the matter, etc. Elements that are part of it, but a view only based on that does not sit well with the idea of a slave saying it doesn't feel well enough to be used, which would then almost be like having to pause / stop the slavery. Instead, it is "simply" about being honest and open, trusting its Master to make the right decisions and then fully accepting those. Decisions based o...

The pig is clearly starting to feel somewhat better. It was relieving to feel the deep submissive horniness flowing freely through its body again earlier today. Slave cock regularly stiff, sensitive body, horny teats and cunt, a horny beast feeling in its element. Thinking about how its Master wants it as horny as possible, it let that horny energy grow stronger in its body by focusing on it and letting it flow without resistance. Getting horny from the idea that with further training that horniness might grow even stronger and able to flow even more freely and uninhibited / uncontrolled. Longing for that state of being a horny pig. At home, the suction cups back on its teats, feeling them starting to burn and tingle as time passed, and the feeling of horny nervous humiliation that wearing the cups always causes because of their purpose. Master booked the slave for use by MemasterU next week. Being informed of that fact this evening was like a mental switch back to the ongoing real...

A phase of severe horniness made that the pig was lying frustrated in bed last night, squirming and moaning, rubbing its cunt as it gave in to those waves. A strong reminder of it being a horny controlled beast. Very different from today during the day, and yesterday, when the horniness was a lot less as it was feeling emotional, sad and tense about recent events. As the slave is writing this blog post it is still feeling rather sad. In that mood it can still feel its submissiveness and humility and its need of feeling owned, and they can be comforting feelings to be in touch with. Its Master has been giving it some space to deal with its emotions. Being given that space explicitly helps it to take distance without feeling a disconnect from its slavery and that makes it feel thankful. Although it makes that its own desires in its current mood are maybe more in the direction of lying naked on the floor at its Master's feet like some pet than in the direction of being humiliate...

The slave balls have been without the ball weight for over a week now. And now that it is off there is the thrilling feeling of how its full and sensitive balls are hanging and swinging low, and that is an effect not caused by anything other than the fact that its balls have been permanently and irreversibly stretched. And the pig knows it will be required to wear the ball weight again as soon as that is possible again. Thinking about that fact makes its cock hard because of how it is controlled like that. Wearing the ball weight, and having its balls stretched, is not something it has a choice about anymore as a slave. Master will want it to wear the heavy weight on its balls and so that will happen. Giving up control started out for this slave as a choice and a commitment, but committing to being a slave did not mean that the feeling of having no choice became immediately true and real on an experience level. The subconscious has a say in that as well. And it is therefore som...

It seems that the horniness and submissive feelings are flowing well lately, especially the past few weeks. Not a day goes by without the slave waking up super horny and experiencing its submissive feelings during the day. And it must say it is very pleasurable to be so constantly in touch with its horniness and slavery. Feeling the sensitivity of its body, its cock frustratingly throbbing, feeling its sensitive teats rub against its clothes and making it horny, feeling like a horny animal and knowing that it is kept that way, feeling the horny tension of being owned and controlled, of being low in status, of the surrender. This slave is in a bit of a reflective mood these days, but it also wants to share the following thoughts regarding its enjoyment of the horniness and submissive feelings lately. Because part of that enjoyment is also a certain relief. It thinks that especially this year it has been able to deal with a lot of old inner tension/pain that it has been carrying arou...

This slave woke up very horny and with this feeling of being "just a slave", where living a live in which it is humiliated and tortured for fun by its superiors just makes a lot of sense, accepting on some deep level that that is what it is for. A certain calm acceptance and at the same time deeply horny feeling of knowing its place. This slave has been waking up quite a few times with similar submissive feelings recently, and in a sense it is characteristic of how its experience of its slavery has been changing quite a bit this year, now coming much more from a place of humility and respect and feeling the difference in status. Where the self humiliation of calling itself "pig" or "slave" is also a way by which it can show deference and respect by lowering itself. And although its life as a slave may contain regular suffering and hard work that may not necessarily be "enjoyable" in the superficial sense, there is a deep feeling of wanting to s...

Some sad news in the family has given the past few days a bit of a serious and emotional charge. It was glad that Master did not expect it to write blog posts. It allowed the slave to have its focus elsewhere and not worry about it. It has not lessened its horniness much and that actually strenghtens the reality of being kept chaste and under control no matter the circumstances. That the horniness and sexual frustration are just something that are always with it, day in and day out, a state that fits the life of a slave, something it can depend on and can in certain ways even be a comfort. The horniness as a symbol and a reminder of its ongoing status as owned property; kept and trained and cared for. Currently, to be honest, this pig feels a little bit hesitant to talk about some of the strong horny submissive desires it has also been having. It must admit that it has somehow felt a little conflicted about them, given the circumstances, and that is a feeling that lingers a bit...