Sadness and submission

A phase of severe horniness made that the pig was lying frustrated in bed last night, squirming and moaning, rubbing its cunt as it gave in to those waves. A strong reminder of it being a horny controlled beast.

Very different from today during the day, and yesterday, when the horniness was a lot less as it was feeling emotional, sad and tense about recent events. As the slave is writing this blog post it is still feeling rather sad. In that mood it can still feel its submissiveness and humility and its need of feeling owned, and they can be comforting feelings to be in touch with.

Its Master has been giving it some space to deal with its emotions. Being given that space explicitly helps it to take distance without feeling a disconnect from its slavery and that makes it feel thankful.

Although it makes that its own desires in its current mood are maybe more in the direction of lying naked on the floor at its Master's feet like some pet than in the direction of being humiliated and tortured (as it knows they will soon again be), it is clear that its slavery is very much about the ongoing connection and dynamics. Wanting to please, being controlled, not (just) because it is horny, but because it feels meaningful and important.