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The beast is resting and recuperating from its first punishment week today, and looks back at a very intense week with a lot happening both on the physical and on the psychological level. It felt calm today, more in touch with its place as Master's slave and enjoying that connection and the resulting flow of submissive feelings. It feels like some mental barriers are maybe breaking down regarding its surrender and hopes it can describe in what way it thinks that is the case. One is that it is letting in the reality of its status more. At some level the slave finds it frightening to truly be seen as low status, as stupid, as insignificant. This is something that it thinks can be explored rather safely in its role as a slave to its Master, where this can go much further than just horny role play / verbal humiliation. For that it has to really let it into its mind that it is seen that way by its Master, accept it as true, and help itself by acting accordingly. To experience its Ma...

Master said the slave now has the weekend to recuperate a bit and prepare for its next series of punishments next week. That news is what it feared but is something the beast has to accept in surrender, taking it one day of suffering at a time, as long as it lasts, in the trust that it helps to bring the slave to the place where it needs to be. Because this slave has learned the hard and messy way that it does not yet know its place and that it has work to do on its feelings of humility and respect, as well as on its surrender of control to its Master. Today it has been experiencing and thinking about these feelings a lot while at the same time spending most of the day in a rather intense "high". Putting on the suction cups whenever it was home cause for a strong feeling of being controlled, as the pig is required to wear them on its teats whenever possible, knowing that doing so will lead to permanent enlargement, to its own humiliation.

A horny frustration kicked in hard last night and this morning. A frustrated cunt, frustrating horniness in its hurting teats. It brought back into its awareness the weight of its chastity punishment.  When the horniness kicks in like this it is nowadays often accompanied by the thought that Master wants the pig as horny as possible, which causes it to give in to it which can intensify the horniness to the point of squirming and moaning. Suffering in frustration, but at the same time the pleasure of how this suffering is pleasing its Master. This evening the slave spent in severe punishment, with its teats suffering the pain of the black clamps for 3 hours and also 10 clothespins on its cock and balls. Titan plug in its cunt, the weights on its balls, gagged. First, it spent one hour standing in the corner. In darkness, overthinking the mess it has caused the past days and how it can work on its acceptance of Master's control. In a humiliating position with legs spread, ass ba...

It is safe to say the beast is suffering severely these couple of days. The pain and the mental blows are taking their toll on its body and mind. Today feelings/emotions hitting it harder, feelings of having lost control, the realization of what the stupidity and ignorance of the slave has caused, and the feelings of shame and humiliation and regret. Emotionally a bit off balance. Feeling its body on high tension and burning all over. A frustrated cunt from the Titan plug. And the teats, painful and at the same time a horny supersensitivity, making them distracting and intense all day at work. And then coming home, suction cups on until its next punishment session. 3 hours with the black clamps again. After an hour they were already in severe pain and then time goes very slow. Instructed to edge to cause the blue balls that its Master enjoys. Its jaws aching on the gag, with the weights pulling on its balls, and the Titan in its cunt until bed time. Master gave the pig instructio...

The stupid slave was further punished this evening and the beast went through some intense suffering. It absolutely dreaded the pain it knew would come, but also felt "ready" for the suffering it deserved and eager to prove its understanding of the severity of its actions. It wore the black clamps on its already painful teats for 3 hours. Extra weights were added, and the beast was to continuously keep them in motion, swinging them. Its balls suffered from the weights, the pig was made to stand, swing the 1.5kg bag hanging from its balls. Made to walk around in circles with it. Wearing the weights until bed time, suffering from a blue burning ball sac later on the evening. It was ball gagged until it went to bed. The pain causing it to bite into it. The pig could already feel its jaws ache during lunch and dinner today and expect that will be a bit more so tomorrow. The mandatory edging helped with some of the pain but the last hour and 15 minutes the pig was ...

This slave is hesitating to write about the suffering endured by being ordered to wear the black clamps for almost 3 hours this evening. It would rather leave it out today, to respect that it understands it is neither here nor there how the slave suffers, certainly considering its fuck up. The slave was told it can assume to be wearing the clamps for at least 3 hours each evening this week, something it brought upon itself. What happened, is that this slave, while under Master's control, but without His knowledge or consent, ignorantly created and maintained a profile about itself on FetLife , which has been active already for about a year now, before it finally told its Master about its existence this weekend, as a casual fact. By doing so, as it now realizes, it showed complete disrespect of its Master and His ownership and control of the slave. And with this realization, the profile started to feel stupid and shameful and the slave wished it could undo it. A profile stained by...

Realizing its place and status as a true slave is a process of trial and error for this slave. It can think back to past behaviour or thoughts, things it said to its Master that now make it cringe, because they show its lack of understanding at the time, of what it means to be a slave and how its Master looked at it. But this mistake was a big one. The slave spent the day chewing on it, the stupidity and ignorance of it so clear on hind sight. Master felt severely disappointed and disrespected, and that is the last thing this slave intended. For this slave the consequences will be evident, it managed to show its Master that there is still a challenging task ahead for Him to get the slave to where it needs to be, and He assesses that a much harder approach is necessary for that. So it expects that its life might change in certain ways, it will have to find out. He also told it that it can forget cumming anytime soon, and that that privilege will take a lot of hard work for the slave...

Once again, the pig showed its stupidity and managed to infuriate its Master. It made a severe mistake in terms of taking independent action, something by which it stepped out of line and showed its apparent lack of understanding of what it means to be Master's property and under His control. Master is furious, told it that this will have consequences, gave it a big scolding. This slave feels awful about that, a knot in its stomach, feeling stupid and embarrassed now. None of which helps in any way. It feels powerless to do anything more now than apologize to its Master, reflect on its mistake, and above all, come to better understand and "feel" its place, so that behaviour like this will naturally be just as unthinkeable for this slave as it is for its Master.

Horny frustration, tingling sensitive teats from yesterday's stimulation, balls heavy and feeling pressured. A day with all too familiar feelings for this slave... The balls are accepting the return of the weight with relative ease. There have been some moments today where the cords/ligaments felt rather painful as the weight was swinging on the pig balls, and the skin around cock ring and ball weight is slightly burning now and then, but all that will get less soon, and for the rest there is just the heavy near-pain feeling of over half a kg of steel constantly pressing and pulling on the balls, making them sensitive. Sometimes horny, sometimes annoying, in any case creating a strong awareness of its balls throughout the day. Heavy, semen-filled blue balls. And the submissive feeling that its balls are constantly stretched further by wearing the weight. There are men that like or have it as their fetish to stretch their own balls as low as possible. For this pig that is not th...

This slave is back from a great camping trip, a few weeks of relaxation and enjoying the sun and nature. A few weeks also without the cock ring and ball weight, and a few weeks of horniness slowly but surely climbing after Master required a double orgasm in pain just before its holiday. The horniness a reminder of Master's constant control, and the horny submissive tension in its gut, feeding its fantasies and desires to submit and serve. The balls of this beast were surprisingly painful for the first couple of days, as they were recuperating from the recent training. But the effects are clear. The cords suspending the balls are noticeably thicker, and the balls are clearly hanging lower, which is visible and can be felt as they are swinging and bouncing when walking. A horny humiliating feeling, reminding the pig on a daily basis how its body is already permanently modified by and for its Master with low hanging balls like a beast. But it knows the pig's balls will ...

It is always remarkable how quickly the intensity and reality of certain suffering can dissipate, and be remembered as something to want again. How the pig really suffered yesterday but nevertheless can already look forward to the next time Master will make it suffer, will make it cum multiple times combined with severe pain, and thinking of that sends a horny rush through its body. Relieved of its seed, the beast slept like a log last night. Today its body is clearly recuperating and releasing the tension -- warm, glowing, pleasant tingles and shivers everywhere -- but the pig is also already feeling horny again. The slave is preparing for its vacation. It is really looking forward to a few weeks of relaxation, getting away from its day to day work and slave life. Of course it will be spending those weeks without an orgasm, as that is not allowed. The horniness and frustration will remind the slave of its place and give it something to "enjoy". Something the beast feels ...

Horny and nervous, the slave presented itself for Master's enjoyment this evening. Knowing the deal: it would be cumming but there would be torture and it would have to cum 3 times in a row... Master had a special treatment for the balls of the beast and roasted them on a candle flame. It was warm at first, with the occasional painful sting of a flare. Master told it to get the balls a bit closer to the flame and now they were getting red, hot and glowing as the pig brought its sperm to a boil. The pig's balls were ready to burst, but Master made it take it slowly, edging in a slow pace, feeling the Titan in its cunt, watching some of the recently collected videos to stimulate its horniness. A frustratingly slow countdown. For the last few counts, the pig was ordered to put its balls as close to the flame as possible. With balls that felt like they were on fire, the beast finally had a big strong orgasm. It collected most of it in its hand to smear on its fa...