Reflection on status and control
The beast is resting and recuperating from its first punishment week today, and looks back at a very intense week with a lot happening both on the physical and on the psychological level.
It felt calm today, more in touch with its place as Master's slave and enjoying that connection and the resulting flow of submissive feelings. It feels like some mental barriers are maybe breaking down regarding its surrender and hopes it can describe in what way it thinks that is the case.
One is that it is letting in the reality of its status more. At some level the slave finds it frightening to truly be seen as low status, as stupid, as insignificant. This is something that it thinks can be explored rather safely in its role as a slave to its Master, where this can go much further than just horny role play / verbal humiliation. For that it has to really let it into its mind that it is seen that way by its Master, accept it as true, and help itself by acting accordingly. To experience its Master as towering high above it and to want to feed His high status in any way possible. From that place flows a natural desire to be humble and respectful. It is obvious though that there is still much work to do for the slave on this theme.
The other is that it is letting in the loss of control more. Another obviously scary one, but liberating too, as this psychological construct of control can be self-limiting. Master broke the slave's sense of control last week in several ways. For example with the clamps punishment. Ordered to wear them 45 minutes longer than its previous record, 45 minutes longer than what it thought it could handle. And then not once, but 4 days in a row, with likely more to come. Forcing the slave to confront and put aside its "stay-in-control" thoughts that this is unreasonable, insane, etcetera, and accept that it will be in agony as long as He decides, accept that it is really not in control. It thinks the fact that it is clearly and truly not about the slave's pleasure also helps to liberate it from that illusion of control in Master's use of the slave in a much broader sense.
Master said He is considering to have the slave construct a punishment bench for itself, something like this one, for it to sit on for a couple of hours with clamps on its teats if it has been stupid or disobedient. The slave has no doubt that such a treatment would become agonizing very quickly. But it gets horny from Master's amusement at having the control to do that to His slave.
It felt calm today, more in touch with its place as Master's slave and enjoying that connection and the resulting flow of submissive feelings. It feels like some mental barriers are maybe breaking down regarding its surrender and hopes it can describe in what way it thinks that is the case.
One is that it is letting in the reality of its status more. At some level the slave finds it frightening to truly be seen as low status, as stupid, as insignificant. This is something that it thinks can be explored rather safely in its role as a slave to its Master, where this can go much further than just horny role play / verbal humiliation. For that it has to really let it into its mind that it is seen that way by its Master, accept it as true, and help itself by acting accordingly. To experience its Master as towering high above it and to want to feed His high status in any way possible. From that place flows a natural desire to be humble and respectful. It is obvious though that there is still much work to do for the slave on this theme.
The other is that it is letting in the loss of control more. Another obviously scary one, but liberating too, as this psychological construct of control can be self-limiting. Master broke the slave's sense of control last week in several ways. For example with the clamps punishment. Ordered to wear them 45 minutes longer than its previous record, 45 minutes longer than what it thought it could handle. And then not once, but 4 days in a row, with likely more to come. Forcing the slave to confront and put aside its "stay-in-control" thoughts that this is unreasonable, insane, etcetera, and accept that it will be in agony as long as He decides, accept that it is really not in control. It thinks the fact that it is clearly and truly not about the slave's pleasure also helps to liberate it from that illusion of control in Master's use of the slave in a much broader sense.
Master said He is considering to have the slave construct a punishment bench for itself, something like this one, for it to sit on for a couple of hours with clamps on its teats if it has been stupid or disobedient. The slave has no doubt that such a treatment would become agonizing very quickly. But it gets horny from Master's amusement at having the control to do that to His slave.
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