More submissive feelings
Like this slave wrote on Friday, these submissive feelings can sometimes be intense. Again today. During a long walk and train ride the slave had a lot of time to reflect on its status as a slave in the form of memories of its use, how it is trained and conditioned to think and feel in certain ways, what is to come in the future and how deep this can go. But in its current state that came with feelings of nervousness, humiliation, loss of control...a deeply horny tension but also a knot in the stomach kind of feeling. Longing for the feeling of being deeply controlled, for the authoritative attitude of Master expecting full obedience from the slave and the slave constantly wanting to prove that He can, not wanting to disappoint, because that is just the nature of things. Fearing the strength of that longing too.
The submissive feelings were easily triggered. By the slave's own little thoughts and fantasies that pop up constantly, or by things the slave sees, whether it is a guy with a shaven head or without hair on his arms/legs, or a maybe wearing thicker-than-normal steel necklace, an older man looking a bit authoritative, even seeing a dog on a leash made the pig think about its own treatment. Led by the chain around its neck as both SIR and MemasterU do...somewhat humiliating but understandable too, just something that is normal for the animal and fits its mind set.
Maybe it is also that the reality of being a slave can sometimes be clearly felt and hits home deep. The blue balls ache that it has been feeling in its groin and balls today for instance, and the horniness that drives it up the wall, is a reminder of how the slave has no control over its sexuality. Trained like a horny animal to crave its own use, pain, humiliation, loaned out to others. It is the slave's reality, not just for now but as a constant and fundamental part of its life. And so it knows tomorrow it will spend the evening training again, followed by going to bed frustrated and with painful teats.
To round off, because it has been super nice weather today here is an outdoor video that got the slave horny the other day.
The submissive feelings were easily triggered. By the slave's own little thoughts and fantasies that pop up constantly, or by things the slave sees, whether it is a guy with a shaven head or without hair on his arms/legs, or a maybe wearing thicker-than-normal steel necklace, an older man looking a bit authoritative, even seeing a dog on a leash made the pig think about its own treatment. Led by the chain around its neck as both SIR and MemasterU do...somewhat humiliating but understandable too, just something that is normal for the animal and fits its mind set.
Maybe it is also that the reality of being a slave can sometimes be clearly felt and hits home deep. The blue balls ache that it has been feeling in its groin and balls today for instance, and the horniness that drives it up the wall, is a reminder of how the slave has no control over its sexuality. Trained like a horny animal to crave its own use, pain, humiliation, loaned out to others. It is the slave's reality, not just for now but as a constant and fundamental part of its life. And so it knows tomorrow it will spend the evening training again, followed by going to bed frustrated and with painful teats.
To round off, because it has been super nice weather today here is an outdoor video that got the slave horny the other day.
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