A day of nervous submissive feelings

Submissive feelings can sometimes run deep and be intense. Today this slave was at an event surrounded by many business men, really feeling a bit low and vulnerable. A feeling as if many of these men could, if they knew and wanted to, bring this slave down to a deep submissive place by being authoritative, grab it by the balls as it were.

A feeling caused in large part by the constant strong horniness. Today it was back in full force. And the horniness and submissive feelings are very much tied together. Today that meant:

• Feeling controlled, kept in this state of almost painful blue balls and regular straining erections, feeling the humiliation of its frustrated fantasies of jumping into a toilet stall to jerk off and get some relief. Really nothing more than fantasies, it is by now deeply engrained in the pig's mind that that is not allowed. No outlook on when its next orgasm may be. Looking at men around it that are free to do as they please.
• Feeling its teats tingle, the humiliation that they are off limits to the pig but that its users always get full access to them, to stimulate and hurt them if they want, and that Master can have the pig do the same. That thought triggering a strong desire for them to be used and now its cock is straining again and its teats tingling even more in anticipation. A frustrating loop.
• And the slight pull of the ball weight and its balls rubbing against its leg. The skin has become more sensitive and so this rubbing has become a horny but weirdly humiliating feeling. Especially because it can be felt how the skin is more loose and how the balls hang lower. An effect that is permanent, as the pig is well aware of.

But also thoughts about the teat rings and the nose ring were going through the pig's mind again and caused a more general submissive nervousness about Master's control which is also a nervousness about its own sometimes intense desires to be deeply humiliated and give up more control, feeling how that can deepen its slavery, but which can also be frightening.

So walking around in horny frustration, in this state, with ample opportunity to project its submissive feelings on random men, has caused an interesting day to say the least.