Reflection on submissive feelings

This slave was feeling and enjoying the horniness today and in particular felt how tingly and super sensitive its shaven teats were feeling under its clothes, causing excitement about its training so far. Along with the horniness it was also feeling its submissive feelings particularly strongly today. Master was talking about the slave as an object to decorate, e.g. as currently with the cock ring and ball weights and its shaven pig teats, and how He intends to go further with that in the future. The slave was reflecting on the excitement that it felt about that, and in a more general sense about its submissive feelings that cause this kind of excitement. Some aspects that it is aware of:

• The feeling of being possession, a slave that exists for use in whatever ways are pleasing. And deriving pleasure from the dominant pleasure of using the slave in that way.

• The pleasure of surrender, of giving itself away as it were, yielding its will to that of its Master. Give away control, i.e. to its body and what it experiences, to privacy, entitlement to comfort or pleasure, etcetera where and when He wants to take that away. 

• The comfort that lies within being controlled, of decisions made for it and also feeling taken care of in this way. The letting go and the paradoxical feeling of freedom when having no choice anyway.

• The feelings of reverence and humility before something greater than itself.

• The low status, feeling inferior, a feeling that it both needs and fears. Although it thinks that fear is ultimately more superficial than it seems and then it is liberating accept that low status and really let the humiliation in. 

These feelings aren't all always felt and seem to fluctuate in strength and focus. Sometimes it can really enjoy the deep pleasure of these feelings and at other times they are more to the background or less conscious, but it thinks they are then still driving the slave to obey and submit, as something it simply has and needs to do.