Not in control and wanting to serve, aspects of the submissive feelings
Although the slave was not feeling well today, it has been feeling pretty submissive too, and feeling almost a certain frustration about not being able to express those feelings.
It is currently so much more about wanting -- needing -- to serve than when it started as Master's slave, when perhaps the feeling of having to do as told, the thrill of that at times being at odds with the slave's desires, was more on the forefront of this slave's feelings, feeling its slavery through the feeling of not being in control. But the submissive feelings lately also tell it more and more that it is a privilege to serve and something to be thankful for. That it wants to be low in status, craves the humiliation because it asserts that low status, and also wants to lower itself as a way to pay respect.
Because from that place it can experience the other side of the same coin, the authority and the dominant pleasure of a superior in control of the slave, getting what they want because that goes without saying because it is a slave. From that place even relatively 'tame' activities can feel thrilling. Today it was thinking about standing naked and exposed before its Master, who was slowly walking around for an inspection, making it feel so owned just by that activity.
The need to feel that it is not in control is also there, and is another side to it, and it desires to slowly give up more control in all kinds of aspects. Its thoughts about permanent chastity are an example. It has not been allowed to cum for a long time now, and can currently feel the painful pressure in its balls. But the wanting to serve aspect also plays a role in these thoughts. Although it is thinking about the lack of control, the thrill of having no more access to its own cock, and the increase of frustration that an inability to become erect anymore would bring, it has become also more about giving itself in that way, willingly taking that frustration as proof of its submission, a visible indication to its Master and its users of how it surrendered that aspect of its sexuality.
It is currently so much more about wanting -- needing -- to serve than when it started as Master's slave, when perhaps the feeling of having to do as told, the thrill of that at times being at odds with the slave's desires, was more on the forefront of this slave's feelings, feeling its slavery through the feeling of not being in control. But the submissive feelings lately also tell it more and more that it is a privilege to serve and something to be thankful for. That it wants to be low in status, craves the humiliation because it asserts that low status, and also wants to lower itself as a way to pay respect.
Because from that place it can experience the other side of the same coin, the authority and the dominant pleasure of a superior in control of the slave, getting what they want because that goes without saying because it is a slave. From that place even relatively 'tame' activities can feel thrilling. Today it was thinking about standing naked and exposed before its Master, who was slowly walking around for an inspection, making it feel so owned just by that activity.
The need to feel that it is not in control is also there, and is another side to it, and it desires to slowly give up more control in all kinds of aspects. Its thoughts about permanent chastity are an example. It has not been allowed to cum for a long time now, and can currently feel the painful pressure in its balls. But the wanting to serve aspect also plays a role in these thoughts. Although it is thinking about the lack of control, the thrill of having no more access to its own cock, and the increase of frustration that an inability to become erect anymore would bring, it has become also more about giving itself in that way, willingly taking that frustration as proof of its submission, a visible indication to its Master and its users of how it surrendered that aspect of its sexuality.
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