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Master booked the beast for some pleasure for MemasterU next week. This fact caused deep horniness and a wave of submissive feelings, especially given the submissive mind set that it has been describing the past couple of days. Feeling the reality of being something that can be loaned out like that and to have no control, to never have a say in the matter. And feeling thankful for it. More and more this slave is deriving its submissive satisfaction just from being Master's slave and accepting what that means as its reality and as a given. Whether it is that it has no control over who uses it when and in what way, or that it can forget about cumming if its Master decides so and stays horny and frustrated instead, or that it has to endure suffering and humiliations on a regular basis just because its Master takes pleasure in it and it is appropriate given its low status to be the target of those, or that it has the threat of a punishment bench waiting for its mistakes always in the...

The pig got home this evening from a weekend away and applied the suction cups to its teats to further train and enlarge them for its Master. Writing this blog post while feeling them burn and being stretched. Yesterday this slave was describing how it was experiencing its submissive feelings and that submissiveness continued today. In the train it sat across a somewhat older and authoritative looking man and could feel that submissive tension within itself, that desire to serve and lower itself and to feel the authority of its Master and users. Thoughts about being naked on the floor sucking SIR's cock or naked on all fours with its ass stuck upwards licking MemasterU's boots sprung to mind. Activities that are required of this slave and can be horny and humiliating. But it can also feel like an honour to be allowed to serve in that way, to be allowed to lower and humiliate itself in order to please. To feel the pleasure of how they can just sit back and enjoy as the slave...

The pig woke up with its useless stiff slave cock painfully constrained by its cock ring and has been having a few frustrating horny episodes today, feeling its submission and desires to be used. Experiencing a horny receptive cunt and very sensitive teat, feeling horny under its clothes. Having this slutty feeling of wanting to expose itself in its horniness, spreading its legs and rubbing its cunt with its fingers, rubbing its chest, imagining its teats enlarged for its Master's pleasure and how horny they would feel. This slave felt its submissiveness when it was watching a movie in which a commander entered a room and everybody in the room quickly stood at attention as the commander, clearly in a position of authority, slowly walked around with his hands wrapped behind his back. Those kinds of situations also resonate with this slave's submissive feelings. Feeling that nervous but thrilling tension of being low in status in front of an Authority. In the past this slave al...

The pig had a bit of a humiliated and owned feeling today. Yesterday it described how it was thinking of the pleasure of serving as entertainment on webcam. Which is true, it looks forward to being used in that sense and to the chance of providing horny pleasure with its submissive surrender. But it is of course also humiliating to be so exposed and subjected to the horny desires of its viewers. And having to come up with suggestions for how it can serve for entertainment on webcam yesterday was humiliating too. Not just to come up with ideas for amusement at its own expense, but also because its thoughts brought it at things it would find horny but also at things it would find difficult, and that made it extra aware of what its Master will be subjecting it to: exposure without control and humiliations to endure, not for its own pleasure, but for His and for those watching. Which is its place as a slave, and it is causing an owned feeling that this will happen because its Master wa...

This evening Master brought the slave in a mind set of exhibition, with its first web cam session happening soon. It sat with its legs spread and its cunt filled with the Titan, and was ordered to slowly play with its teats and edge, swinging the weight on its balls and playing with them, as if it was on display and had to seduce men. The pig was horny, edging slowly but firmly as ordered, with clover clamps on its teats, feeling the Titan move in its cunt as it was swinging the ball weight, thinking about the pleasure of entertaining Master and its viewers as a slave on cam. The slave will be there for the viewers' enjoyment and they might have ideas for what they want to see. It understands that it is not just on display serving its Master, but also serving its viewers, and that its Master will in principle require the slave to fulfil any such wishes. Master ordered the slave to also come up with some suggestions or ideas on how it could entertain. It might of course be hor...

Luckily this pig slept a bit better last night. It did feel very horny and submissive during the night, a feeling that continued throughout the day at work. A deep horniness, a horny and "open" cunt, sitting behind its desk with a stiff cock, giving in to the horny waves with a blissful feeling of being controlled and resting assured that any kind of release is absolutely out of the question for the foreseeable future. Master was not available this evening and gave the pig some more space to recharge, again ordered to put the plug in its cunt and of course with the suction cups on its teats. The plug creates a deep horny glow and the suction cups make its teats horny and burning. Together again creating that bliss of horny surrender, of being deeply horny without control, for its Master. The pig is regularly wearing the suction cups, ordered to wear them whenever possible, and the way they look when the cups are removed is still always a bit humiliating. The cups do make ...

After many posts about its horny frustration lately, today this slave would just like to say something about a different aspect of being owned that it is thankful to its Master for. Last night it was again awake for most of the night, unable to fall asleep, and today its body felt tense and less horny as a result, again unfit for a session. Not happy about having to report that to its Master, but it was what it was. Master told it to plug its cunt for the evening and just take some rest instead. The point it wants to make is that although being plugged right now creates a deep horny glow, it is in its current state also comforting . It gives a certain warm feeling to still be plugged for its Master and to feel that it can rely on the control always continuing, regardless of whether the slave feels good or bad. And that keeping the pig horny and continuing the habit of a filled cunt on weekday evenings has a certain meaning and depth beyond the direct sexual pleasure derived from it...

The slave was feeling horny and submissive today and was feeling the thrill of surrender and being controlled, also with the chastity device thoughts of the last few days in its mind. To live a life where Master can decide to lock up the slave cock to make the beast further understand its place as only being there for others to enjoy, and with no control.  The beast had trouble sleeping last night and only caught a few hours of sleep. This evening that translated in difficulty getting the slave cock hard and leaking from teat play for its Master, and so rather than using it for a session He decided for it to spend the evening edging in a relaxed manner, with the Titan in its cunt and weights on its balls, watching the photos and videos that were made during SIR's use of the pig, and watching some horny videos online. The pig focused on how horny the Titan felt in its cunt and kept itself on the edge of cumming. Giving in to the horny sensations, moving on the plug, feeling lik...

The pig has just been feeling super horny and submissive today. The horny frustration and being denied release feed into its feelings that it is there only for the enjoyment of its Master and the users He requires it to serve. A horny and frustrated play thing. The fact that its Master imagines it with a chastity device that makes it even more clear -- to itself and to its users --    that its place is only to provide pleasure,  fills it with similar submissive feelings. Its mouth  and cunt available for use but its cock only unlocked if someone wants to play with it, cumming only on special occasions or no longer an option. A prospect that Master fed it this morning after it woke up from another frustrating night and which made it tremble with horniness. Of course it had been thinking of that today with a certain anxiousness too, especially since it is feeling so horny and frustrated and is learning -- and will continue to find out -- how it feels to go so long wi...

The pig keeps thinking back to the memory of being on its knees with SIR's cock in its throat recently, working as SIR relaxes, an image that sort of symbolises its position, its status and its purpose, and it feels the longing to be used again. To feel that expectation of service and obedience, the expectation that it is there to provide pleasure and nothing more. Today it was again very horny and was well aware of the ball weight causing heavy swinging balls. Regularly a frustrating stiff cock constrained by the cock ring. Master reminded it that it should be glad to still be able to experience that, as a next phase of being controlled will involve a chastity device locked on the slave cock. Master is currently finding satisfaction in having the pig edge for Him without having it cum. Once Master decides to have the pig wear a chastity device, that will mean the end of any erections and it is trying to imagine the constrained frustrated and also powerless feeling of spending it...

The pig is feeling the pressure of its horniness day in day out. Its balls feel firm when squeezed, big, under pressure. Today a few moments of being frustrated with a throbbing leaking cock, also in part due to the suction cups on its teats. Making them swollen and stretching the skin, causing horniness and a burning feeling. It has been thinking about the past period and feeling its slavery. The recent session at SIR's, in pain with the clamps and used and humiliated as a stupid cock sucker. Experiences like that strengthen its understanding of its place. A low status feeling that was today also easily triggered when among other men. At the same time feeling so horny too, controlled, which adds to that feeling. And of course the punishment bench which is now waiting for the inevitable fuckup. Which will be painful but Master's intention to broadcast its punishments on webcam also makes it very humiliating, knowing it will be exposed and publicly shamed for its stupidities...

Yesterday's edging and wearing the Titan in its cunt made that the pig was feeling horny and frustrated today, pressure in its balls as if they are constantly slightly squeezed. At work with a regular stiff cock. This evening Master gave the slave a taste of the fear of the punishment bench. With the black clamps on its teats with extra weights, He ordered it to go on all fours, crawl towards it and kneel before the bench, swinging the weights. Mouth open and focusing on the plug. It was horny and its cock was hard from the swinging clamps. Then it was told to start licking the plug and taking it in its mouth, making it wet. And finally, to squat over it, but pause with the plug half inserted in its cunt, hovering just above the nails and bottle caps. It was a very tough position to maintain because it could not support itself on the bench with its hands and it could not sit down. It was anticipating the suffering soon to come, thinking Master wanted the slave to take the bench...

Master is back from holiday and continued His training of the beast this evening. A very frustrating slow edging session, moving on the Titan plug with the clover clamps on its teats. Working to frustrate itself and increase its blue balls feeling for the enjoyment of its Master. Producing a leaking cock and smearing the precum on its head. Feeling super frustrated, in its cunt from moving on the plug, and from the edging, at the same time feeling the pain of the cockring constricting its erection and making the skin a bit raw, and from a burning ball sac from the weights. After the session, the suction cups caused the pig to feel its painful teats. The frustrating feeling of filled balls under pressure is certainly increasing... Master is already having some ideas for a webcam session for the pig. Humiliating ideas, painful ideas. Some certainly made it nervous but it will undergo whatever is required of it to entertain Master and other viewers. Master thought the punishment ben...

Going to bed frustrated sometimes causes horny nights and that was the case last night. Dreams in which it was treated as a slave, horny teats that made it squirm in bed. Horniness that continued to frustrate today. The punishment bench that Master required the pig to construct is now finished. Master allowed the pig to work on it again this evening, wearing its black clamps and its plug in its cunt. Working while feeling a combination of horniness and pain. The pig had to ask a stupid question about its instructions but especially with the punishment bench in mind it thought it would be much better to ask a stupid question and be humiliated about it, than to make a stupid mistake. Master wanted a painful and humiliating object for punishment. Painful it certainly is, immediately when sitting down, and even very short periods of "test sitting" cause a scratched burning red ass afterwards. A recurring fear the pig has is that it has only these short experiences to go by...

The pig woke up in horny frustration with a throbbing cock and pressure in its prostate and balls. Master gave it permission to play with its teats, aiming to further increase its frustration and blue balls. And as it was pulling and rolling its teats between its fingers today, feeling the horniness course through its body, getting frustrated, it was thinking of its place as a slave. Where it is natural for most men to have a great and satisfying orgasm whenever they want, for this slave it has become natural that a release is a privilege. A privilege that -- like its Master wants -- is always combined with severe pain too, and a privilege that can be taken away for a long time altogether, as it is currently well aware of, for punishment, or just because that so happens to please its Master. And so the pig just frustrated itself today, feeling its blue balls ache, carrying around the weight pressing and pulling on its balls. The spermatic cords from which they hang are sensitive as...

Today the pig was feeling its horniness. Tingling teats, a glowing/throbbing prostate and pressure in its balls. Writing this blog post with a frustrated stiff cock. A controlled feeling and one that took its mind anxiously to the realisation that as part of its punishment it has to go without any release for the rest of the year at least. And that it will require a lot of work to earn that privilege, as Master made clear. This weekend Master is giving the body of the beast some rest which also means a break from having to wear the suction cups. It knows soon enough the pig's horniness will be stimulated again, it is thinking of the frustrating edging and teat play and the Titan plug in its cunt as required by its Master. That stimulation of its horniness will not make its chastity period easier, but suffering the horny frustration is a way to serve its Master's pleasure, and the control helps to remind it of its place.

The pig's teats were sore today after yesterday's session with the clamps. Wearing the suction cups on them in the morning caused a bit of a burning feeling. A reminder of its punishment. The session at SIR's yesterday left the slave with a used feeling, made to work in pain, punished, doing its best to please SIR's cock with its mouth, enduring humiliations, and then sent home, clamps still on and its weighed down balls still filled with seed. This is of course the slave's obligation to its Master, who decided to have SIR enjoy His slave and who it does not want to let down. Like a whore sent on duty it is to do its best to pleasure and please SIR, and is also evaluated on its performance. The slave was told its performance yesterday was to reasonable satisfaction, but that there are some critical points that it will have to work on and improve. As a slave there is a certain "satisfaction" that this is its life, with no choice in the matter. If it is ...

This evening at SIR's was clearly a punishment session. Of course that already started with the pig wearing the black clamps on its teats and extra weights on its balls, from when it left home to when it was back home two and a half hours later. SIR made the slave strip, and as SIR took out the flogger the pig prepared for its punishment. The pig was made to take the chain of its clamps between its teeth, and SIR asked it how it could have been so stupid. He administered a few series of hard flogging on its ass, and he used the handle of the flogger to beat the slave cock and punch its balls. The pig was then told to get on its knees and crawl with its hands on its back to SIR sitting on the couch. Told to sniff his underwear, and then remove it with its teeth. When it was done it dropped the underwear on the floor without being told, which SIR did not appreciate and he reminded the pig how taking independent action has been a theme for it lately. It spent pretty much the res...

Tomorrow the pig is sent to SIR for use. It feels submissive, horny thinking about it, but it also knows punishment awaits and that makes it aware of its stupidity and disrespect again, makes it ashamed. That will add to its feelings of humiliation tomorrow. This evening Master let the slave do some more work on its punishment bench, its teats clamped with the clover clamps. Once it is finished it will of course provide pictures here. The bench will be very painful and humiliating to sit on. So working on it added to its punishment mind set. The pig is horny from the clamps and the suction cups and the pig cunt is throbbing now. The plug was removed this evening, it was getting painful and Master wanted to give it some rest for tomorrow's loan out. It will travel with and appear wearing the black clamps on its teats and extra weights on its balls, and then SIR can use it in whatever way he wants, and he can expect full compliance and effort to please. Because that is what its M...

The pig slept with the plug in its cunt and spent all day at work plugged. In bed the way the plug presses against the prostate was causing erections throughout the night and it woke up a few times in frustration. Also today some frustrating moments where the plug was making it horny. Plugged to feel Master's ownership of its cunt. Master intends to display the beast on webcam soon, and so one of its tasks during His holiday is to set up a webcam environment for its own exhibition, which is what it worked on this evening. To the slave it is both thrilling and humiliating to be exposed under Master's control. Shown to others, with no say in who will be watching and in what it will be made to do on cam to entertain its viewers. Its obedience despite humiliation, discomfort or pain being proof of Master's control of the beast.

The pig has been feeling frustrated from its horniness last night and this morning, waking up and feeling its slave cock almost painfully constrained by the cock ring. Horny and reminded of its powerlessness to do anything about it, reminded of its ongoing punishment. Today this slave was given permission to do some work on its punishment bench. It had to do so with the black clamps biting in its teats and the plug in its cunt. A slave at work. So it was a horny but also painful evening of DIY for the beast, especially the clamps swinging around and causing pain as it was working reminded it that it was working on a device for its own punishment. The pig experimented with a few options for the spikes on the seat by sitting on samples for a couple of minutes here and there. Painful, and even those short periods already gave the beast a glowing red ass. And better idea of how painful the different options are, and how to construct the bench so as to cause a very painful experienc...

The beast has been feeling a kind of humiliated feeling the past days and today it again thought back on recent events and its punishment. In a sense its experience of being a slave has probably strengthened a bit as a result of its punishment, has become a bit more real. And with it, the knowledge that it is there to be played with, toyed with, used...there for the pleasure of its Master and users. It is the feeling it has about its upcoming loan out to SIR. The pig may feel horny, may long to be used, may look forward to pleasing SIR's cock. That is all the case. But it primarily  has to  turn up and let itself be used, perform to the best of its ability, satisfy its Master's expectations and pleasing Him by providing good service and pleasure for SIR. The punishments put the slave in its place and from there it experiences this obligation and absolute lack of choice a bit more strongly. And that is part of the humiliated feeling, that that is its place and the reality...

Today the slave was still quite tired and at the same time feeling submissive. Thoughts about the past weeks, and about the bench it now has to make for future missteps that Master is sure are to come. The slave happened to be sitting a lot today, some hours in the train for instance, aware of how a few hours of sitting on even a soft surface can become uncomfortable, thinking with certain anxiousness how that will be on a surface with spikes. A submissive feeling also from the horniness that is intensifying again, aching and burning in its body, now and then very frustrating and causing a controlled and humiliated feeling. Thinking about months of frustration to come, which the beast brought upon itself. Just like being booked for use by SIR next week feels extra humiliating now. A session that is also going to involve more punishment for the slave. It has instructions to wear extra weights on its balls, and no underwear to give the weights the space to hang. And it is to appear w...

Today this slave had the day off and so it had time to recover from the recent punishment sessions taking their toll on body and mind. It was at home for most of the day so the suction cups were on its teats for extensive periods of time. The pig is required to wear them constantly whenever it has the opportunity. Today they made the teats ache and itch, often they cause horniness as well. Always a humiliating sight when they come off and the teats are swollen, always a moment that this pig realizes its submission and how it is enlarging its teats for Master's enjoyment. The slave has also been buying some material for a DIY project it is tasked with during Master's holiday. Which is to make a punishment bench to sit on and suffer whenever it makes stupid mistakes again. It has to have a plug or dildo in the middle, and spikes on the seat. Master wants it constructed in such a way that it will instill fear. That having to sit on it will be something that the slave wants to st...

This slave was mentally preparing itself for another punishment session this evening and got itself ready with the Titan in its cunt and the weights on its balls. But to the pig's relief, Master decided to end the streak of punishment sessions, judging that the slave has learned its lesson. A lesson -- tough as it was -- that the slave is thankful for, bringing it more in touch with its slave status. A lesson that it also won't easily forget. And it will still have its long chastity period to remind it of its stupidity the coming months. Master focused on stimulating the pig's horniness this evening, and so it was told to play with its teats to get a leaking cock, and then to edge and keep itself close to orgasm.  But the pig was not free of pain and wore the clover clamps for an hour and a half. And also was given instructions to further train its cock sucking. Focusing on and then pleasuring the cock head of the dildo with its tongue, then taking it in its sor...

Master was not available this evening but the slave was nevertheless put to work for its next punishment session. Very much like yesterday: 3 hours with the black clamps on its teats Weights on balls and clamps Titan plug in its cunt Half an hour cock sucking training while sat down on the plug Half an hour cock sucking training on all fours, legs spread, ass up Half an hour cock sucking training, standing with legs spread, bending forward to suck the dildo on its desk, weights hanging from its balls Watching videos or browsing FetLife for inspiration This session was a lot harder than yesterday's. Feeling exhaustion from the previous sessions. Painful cock sucking with a sore throat from yesterday. There were some mentally difficult moments throughout the evening. For instance, a moment where it was struggling with its cock sucking on all fours and then looked at the clock and realized the already suffering teats would have two more hours to go with the clamps and that...

The slave had trouble sleeping last night. The teats hurt a lot and made the feeling of the blankets a torture in itself when moving and turning over. And the plug in its cunt was stretching the sphinchter in a painful way. The plug has been causing discomfort and pain throughout the day too, and at the beginning of the evening it felt the weight of its slave existence, it felt exhausted and was fighting off thoughts of how miserable it was, and the accompanying emotions. Inappropriate self pity for a slave in punishment, but nevertheless takes mental effort to overcome sometimes. It did not change the fact that it was to endure its next punishment session this evening, where Master had the pig wear the clamps for three hours again, with extra weights on them. Next week Master is loaning out the slave to SIR, which will likely involve a lot of pleasing SIR's cock with its mouth and throat, so Master trained the pig's cock sucking skills this evening. SIR wanted a video of i...

This pig was super horny today and felt very frustrated at work, the horniness constantly nagging, feeling urgent, intense. Mentally that was tough. Will it be facing 4 months of this? Will it get worse? Of course Master had the pig further increase its horniness by edging all evening in another punishment session. 3 hours with the black clamps with extra weights, sitting on the Titan plug. Some exercises for the slave, walking around with legs spread, ass backward and teats stuck forward while edging. Feeling the weights torture its balls. The slave was given some tasks to perform during Master's upcoming holiday: setting up a webcam environment where it will appear soon, and creating a punishment bench with plug or dildo in the center and spikes to sit on. And it will be wearing the clamps on its teats during its DIY. The slave suffered and moaned in pain and frustration as it was told to go on FetLife and get some inspiration from pictures of slaves during the rest of the ...

The pig is preparing itself for another week of punishment. With teats that still have a bit of a sore and burning feeling to them it has some fear for the pain and suffering that is to come, but feels accepting and surrendered about it too. No choice but to undergo. The same is true for its chastity punishment. After 4 and a half weeks without an orgasm the pig is getting ever more frustratingly horny, its body warm and glowing and tingling from the horniness a lot of the time, with phases of outright frustration becoming more regular. Pressure in its balls. Feeling like this after 4 weeks makes it anxious about the reality of at least 4 more months without cumming. It will just have to take it day by frustrating day. The suction cups it is required to wear add to the frustration. The constant pull on its chest and the tingle of its teats as if tiny fingers are reaching in and pull directly on the nerve bundle. Movement and breathing creating subtle pressure differences causing m...