The pig's current thoughts on pain training

This slave was not available for a training session this evening but was again very horny and "enjoying" the effects of yesterday's session. It woke up with painful sensitive teats, but it also felt its jaws, and whenever it ate something the pig was reminded of the fact that Master had it ball gagged yesterday. The gag made it feel horny and submissive knowing it is a pleasing and horny sight for its Master.

The pig could clearly remember yesterday's agony and the relief when it reached the time where it was allowed to stop torturing its teats by twisting, turning, pulling on the clamps. At the same time, this morning the teats were already desiring and getting horny from the thought of more torture, not just the pleasure/pain torture of wearing and swinging the clamps but also the suffering phase at the end. It is a strange experience to desire suffering like that.

In general, this slave has the feeling that currently in its pain training it is mostly driven by the desire to please and to feel like a slave, suffering because it can be made to suffer, because it is not in control and enjoying how it pleases its Master and its users. It also feels a drive to explore and expand its limits, which feels like an ambition, and a curiosity of what is possible with training. In terms of enjoyment it can certainly get pleasure from certain forms of pain up to a certain level, by now especially teat torture, but it is not yet "enjoying" the pain in the way the men in the CBT videos seem to enjoy it, who talk about the pleasure brought by the release of endorphins. And yet this slave is curious what will happen in the coming time and how trainable this is. For this slave it is a horny thought to maybe one day find itself at a point where pain is so fundamental to its sexual experience that it needs it and craves it, despite the suffering.