More thoughts on control

Master stated that the ultimate form of freedom is the option to give up that freedom and to surrender oneself to another. In the same vein this slave feels that there is paradoxically a certain freedom to be found in the surrender itself, especially if it is total. A freedom from choice, from being dependent on comfort, possessions etc., a freedom from personal norms and values that one was brought up with and might have to change or give up, a freedom from depending on ones self image / identity even. A freedom in which it can be felt that none of those things truly define ones inner self or are truly necessary for ones happiness or in fact that it is more happy when relieved of those things.

An ideal to strive towards, surely, this slave knows that this kind of total surrender is certainly not something that can be done overnight and will be an ongoing path with obstacles and limits. But there is a very interesting tension in the process itself, scary and satisfying at the same time, which makes this slave happy to have the opportunity to explore these aspects of control, some clearly sexual and others more emotional.

An example of the latter is that recently this slave shared certain aspects of its past with Master that are still sometimes affecting this slave emotionally but that were also in a sense defining for who this slave grew up to be. This slave found that its motivations for sharing this were not only so it can better inform its Master of its well being, but also to lay itself bare, to give up privacy, to be in a certain sense exposed and vulnerable. The emotional equivalent to showing itself naked and horny for Master's pleasure. With strangely enough the same kind of deep rush when it got the feeling that what this slave wanted to give was also something Master wanted to take, as part of His ownership of this slave.