A bit of aftermath

Today this slave could really feel the emotional investment it has apparently put into the loan out and had a bit of a hangover-like feeling. Not unhappy but certainly low on mental energy it sort of powerhoused itself through meetings and tasks at work, being able to perform but really rather wanting to lie on a couch and zone out instead. This piglet felt glad that Master sensed this and gave the pig the option to have some time for itself this evening. That gave this pig a chance to recharge its batteries, but also gave its mind some space to make sense of a number of different feelings that are at this point still a bit difficult to articulate.

Last night in bed and today, little bits and pieces of its use by SIR sprang to mind. Little tactile memories, like feeling SIRs hand roughly grabbing the slave's chin or feeling His fingers in its snout. How He kept calling it a pig / piglet and how that aroused this pig. How SIR discovered how arousing it is for the pig for its teats to be stimulated, and later how aroused it gets by sticking its tongue out and by being ordered to do that.

Master sent this pig the photos and videos that He got from SIR. It enjoyed reliving yesterday's session and also enjoyed how much of it Master got to see. What is surprising is how little shame this pig feels in seeing itself humiliated like it has been. Humiliation and shame are clearly two very distinct feelings. It is not ashamed of the submission or humiliations, if anything it is glad to see how little it held back and how little it let its self-consciousness get in the way in surrendering to the activities it was ordered to do. It feels that Masters training already took away some of its inhibitions, which hopefully helps it descend further down its path to slavery and pigdom.