Coping without orgasms
Day 44 without an orgasm. That has certainly placed this slave in a permanently horny state. This morning it woke up horny as usual, it just had to finger its cunt, stick out its tongue in frustrated horniness, wanted to hump the blankets. It was particularly aware of the pig teats today, being sensitive under its shirt and being stimulated with movement. Also, a nagging frustrating feeling in its groin, balls and prostate throughout the day and the pig cunt was bit sensitive and was glowing from yesterday's stimulation. And this evening this piglet felt horny and longed for the feeling of being plugged, at least get some stimulation. It wasn't told to plug itself so it will have to wait. Hopefully tomorrow.
It is kind of interesting how bearable the constant horniness and frustration actually still is. This slave would have imagined by now it would be climbing the walls. That does happen, there are regular peak moments (waking up at night, waking up in the morning, and of course during the chat sessions with Master) where the frustration is especially present. Also when it is writing about its horniness like now, and thinking about it, that focus creates quite some frustration. But all in all, this slave is able to deal with and accept this horniness and frustration almost as the new normal.
That said, when this slave tries a thought experiment where it would not be under Masters control, it can feel especially clearly how it may be underestimating how horny it actually is though. It would then certainly not spend a single day more without shooting its load. The same is true for being plugged and the added stimulation that that gives. Putting in the plug and feeling its horny stimulation would probably have had this slave wanking itself to orgasm pretty soon after. Under Masters control, it does not have those choices which gives it the satisfying peace of mind where it can just surrender to all these feelings of horniness, desire and frustration, enjoy them for what they are, and accept them as part of this slave's life.
It is kind of interesting how bearable the constant horniness and frustration actually still is. This slave would have imagined by now it would be climbing the walls. That does happen, there are regular peak moments (waking up at night, waking up in the morning, and of course during the chat sessions with Master) where the frustration is especially present. Also when it is writing about its horniness like now, and thinking about it, that focus creates quite some frustration. But all in all, this slave is able to deal with and accept this horniness and frustration almost as the new normal.
That said, when this slave tries a thought experiment where it would not be under Masters control, it can feel especially clearly how it may be underestimating how horny it actually is though. It would then certainly not spend a single day more without shooting its load. The same is true for being plugged and the added stimulation that that gives. Putting in the plug and feeling its horny stimulation would probably have had this slave wanking itself to orgasm pretty soon after. Under Masters control, it does not have those choices which gives it the satisfying peace of mind where it can just surrender to all these feelings of horniness, desire and frustration, enjoy them for what they are, and accept them as part of this slave's life.
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